(warning, inspirational rant ahead!)
Such is the life of a fire elemental, a life of living fire, always flickering, but always coming back strong.
I’ve been flickering, but new fuel is on the fire. What fuel is this, you ask? The fuel of my own determination. I have goals, damnit, and I’m not about to give up on them. I want to run parkour. I want to run a marathon. I want to go swimming in my bikini and be comfortable with it. I want to be confident in my own body. I want to be fit to fight!
I’m reminded of Rurouni Kenshin now. If I fail, then not only does my life end, but also the life of the one I’m trying to protect. How does that translate into a situation like mine? Simple, really. If I fail, not only does my goal not get met, but I fail to defend and prove the lives of those I’m trying to embody. Yami Schneider, Drehmos Blaze, my two great heroes. Every fighter I’ve ever written, every daring person whose life I’ve scribed, if I can’t live up to them, then who will? If I can’t show the world through MY life what kind of people they are, how will the world know how I feel?
I entreat you, I implore you, I exhort you,
I challenge you: To speak with conviction.
To say what you believe in a manner that bespeaks
the determination with which you believe it.
-Taylor Mali
To say what I believe in a manner that bespeaks the determination with which I believe it. To LIVE what I believe, with determination, with courage, WITH CONVICTION!!! This has long been my stated motto, but it’s been so long since I’ve obeyed it. So what is it I believe that I want to speak through my actions? I need to write this, to clarify it for myself….
I believe….
- That I am worthy of respect (If I don’t respect my body, then what message does that send?)
- That I am strong in ways words cannot describe (Then I must be strong in the describable ways too.)
- That I am brave (I need to be strong enough that standing up to fight is brave, but not stupid.)
- That I am creative (Then don’t I need to create?)
- That all life is worthy of respect (and that even if you don’t believe that, I will still keep you from disrespecting life.)
Of course, I believe other things too…(like the word of God, y’know, that sort of thing.)…But those are the beliefs that I think apply most to this. (Do you have any more to add? Do comment.)
All right, that’s enough for one night. I’m going running tomorrow. My diet and exercise plan officially start Monday. I’ll try to remember to post details of such tomorrow.
Good night, my friends, and deity bless.
